This Afternoon, I received the answer to a plea for help. Then I fell asleep, and dreamed of how they perceive things. Something I was able to do for a day, four or five years back. Probably Less. It was wonderful. Maybe the reason I cannot let myself develop anymore is the fear that I will then be so suffused with love and pleasure that all the pain around me will just leave me cold.
Maybe I am just afraid of the rush. Who knows. I realize my English really is gettingreally bad indeed. I realize my intellectual functions are down to 25 percent of what I once was capable of (a typical sign of long time depressed states and/or serious, long-term stress). Then I decided that I won't (have to) take one guys subtle insults anymore. For now, I am watching the situation..without a further commenting.
My therapist told me to go see a specialist and not bother with the appointment at the jobcenter. I'll go there. For what its worth, but I'll also see the specialist. :)
I am watching a great DVD..Celine Dion. It is not my favourite music, though she is a very good singer in some respects, and the stage show is just amazing. Same person responsible for as on another DVD I recently watched. Just like I imagine mine to be..and then a bit more. ^^..
Maybe I am just afraid of the rush. Who knows. I realize my English really is gettingreally bad indeed. I realize my intellectual functions are down to 25 percent of what I once was capable of (a typical sign of long time depressed states and/or serious, long-term stress). Then I decided that I won't (have to) take one guys subtle insults anymore. For now, I am watching the situation..without a further commenting.
My therapist told me to go see a specialist and not bother with the appointment at the jobcenter. I'll go there. For what its worth, but I'll also see the specialist. :)
I am watching a great DVD..Celine Dion. It is not my favourite music, though she is a very good singer in some respects, and the stage show is just amazing. Same person responsible for as on another DVD I recently watched. Just like I imagine mine to be..and then a bit more. ^^..
