..I watch Dr. who episodes online. I watch videos rock stars put out that show them "privately"... and I keep thinking.. those actors on Dr. Who are more real than the "real" stars.. isn't this sad?
I am always worried.. that I might not be fit enough to do what I'd like to do..even though chances are slim I'll be able to do a fraction of what I envisage, and then.. I realize..I have something the others don't have. Something only a handful of people I've met so far seem to have.. and I would not even be able to describe it properly. Maybe some sort of "non-ego", or less egoistic ways of dealing with each other.. no. thats not it, not quite.
Anthony had it. And I remember being disappointed at something Franz said yesterday.. "We are all egoists, just some are long term thinking egoists..so they want earth to be a happy place for everybody- and some are short term thinking." I AM NOT LIKE THIS.. maybe I feel too connected already, maybe I have too much empathy, maybe.. I am simply different, and I dont know where and how. But I think it is precious, and I can give that. ;)
I am always worried.. that I might not be fit enough to do what I'd like to do..even though chances are slim I'll be able to do a fraction of what I envisage, and then.. I realize..I have something the others don't have. Something only a handful of people I've met so far seem to have.. and I would not even be able to describe it properly. Maybe some sort of "non-ego", or less egoistic ways of dealing with each other.. no. thats not it, not quite.
Anthony had it. And I remember being disappointed at something Franz said yesterday.. "We are all egoists, just some are long term thinking egoists..so they want earth to be a happy place for everybody- and some are short term thinking." I AM NOT LIKE THIS.. maybe I feel too connected already, maybe I have too much empathy, maybe.. I am simply different, and I dont know where and how. But I think it is precious, and I can give that. ;)
