:).. Happening in the time of the year that is just perfect for it.
Love. In a Kind, gentle, spiritual sense when Benny- the Boy with the bad past I picked up at uni- helps me assemble a bed Frame we found in the cellar. (because I have slept on the Floor for the past year.. dont have Money for a bedframe) And it just moves me.. this mutual Feeling of friendship.. I havent felt it in quite some time.
It is so wonderful. First, it took all of me, feeling the depression inside of him (when I met him, he had been mobbed for 7 years here and was in a desastrous shape, physically as well as mentally) when sitting next to him in class, constantly pushing him to start learning for exams, gently but persistantly, and the many conversations we had while I was already quite on edge myself, health- and work-wise.
He has made incredible progress, and what is best.. he started to drive me around, drives me to appointments, helps me fix stuff at home (so I profit from it which wasnt exspected:).. AND he brings me Food. He somehow found out for him that feeding People makes him happy.
Seriously.. in my mind his dreamjob would probably be `becoming a priest for the Formula 1. LOL.. if that would exist. He is that type. Very bright spiritually, yet at times VERY conservative and a straightforward Christian (we had some discussions on gay rights and spiritual purity in the past), and a car Enthusiast like most in class. And he IS smart, he is just.. not lazy but procrastinating heavily. For a variety of reasons.. one being that online games being more interesting and distracting than focussing on uni stuff. And distraction is vital when you've got a ton of Topics to work on (like most Young men). ;) Anyhow.
Love. When I think of Paul.. which is probably not going to happen in real life. He is in a relationship. Which would normally make him untouchable in my mind.. but I am so mad for the guy I just cant stop wanting to go out for coffee again. I am not the exalted type and I have never kissed anyone in public, but I swear if I have to wait a couple more months for him, and we go out again.. I will be all over him. :) This has totally transformed my life, and had the power to almost erase all of my past six years.
Love. In a Kind, gentle, spiritual sense when Benny- the Boy with the bad past I picked up at uni- helps me assemble a bed Frame we found in the cellar. (because I have slept on the Floor for the past year.. dont have Money for a bedframe) And it just moves me.. this mutual Feeling of friendship.. I havent felt it in quite some time.
It is so wonderful. First, it took all of me, feeling the depression inside of him (when I met him, he had been mobbed for 7 years here and was in a desastrous shape, physically as well as mentally) when sitting next to him in class, constantly pushing him to start learning for exams, gently but persistantly, and the many conversations we had while I was already quite on edge myself, health- and work-wise.
He has made incredible progress, and what is best.. he started to drive me around, drives me to appointments, helps me fix stuff at home (so I profit from it which wasnt exspected:).. AND he brings me Food. He somehow found out for him that feeding People makes him happy.
Seriously.. in my mind his dreamjob would probably be `becoming a priest for the Formula 1. LOL.. if that would exist. He is that type. Very bright spiritually, yet at times VERY conservative and a straightforward Christian (we had some discussions on gay rights and spiritual purity in the past), and a car Enthusiast like most in class. And he IS smart, he is just.. not lazy but procrastinating heavily. For a variety of reasons.. one being that online games being more interesting and distracting than focussing on uni stuff. And distraction is vital when you've got a ton of Topics to work on (like most Young men). ;) Anyhow.
Love. When I think of Paul.. which is probably not going to happen in real life. He is in a relationship. Which would normally make him untouchable in my mind.. but I am so mad for the guy I just cant stop wanting to go out for coffee again. I am not the exalted type and I have never kissed anyone in public, but I swear if I have to wait a couple more months for him, and we go out again.. I will be all over him. :) This has totally transformed my life, and had the power to almost erase all of my past six years.
