Enjoy the Silence.

I understand it now. But I want a loving man (outspoken or not), who can tolerate my verbal outbursts until they subside. 

I'm more like this type (with or without sound)- so far only a Yogi has understood and tolerated me. Maybe that's being asked too much of a regular man. 

Martin Gore is a complicated man, in any case. And I am not into s/m, and the complications behind it. As much as I like the sound of their music- the lyrics are a major mis-match imho. 

How can you sing about spiritual stuff and love and instantly deform it musically? I don't get it. 

That's what Ernest never understood..

..even though sacrificing one's health..nah. That goes too far. :)

..though he understood it better than Raphael. We are not talking unnecessary pain here..maybe dedication describes it best.

The world in my eyes

..let me show you the world in my eyes.

I will be on T.V. in the docu soap "Liebesgschicht'n und Heiratssachen", sequel 7, 8 or 9, sometime in between the 27th of August to the 19th of September. in full costume and phantasy makeup ("no mask", I was told). Well. Noone is going to believe me that this all really started out as a joke..^^..then they picked up on it- despite my exspectations..I went on a cure..I came back and we filmed, last minute. :)

I had a long discussion with Carlo in the studio today, as it is really important to me- however the audience takes it- to know that my immediate surroundings understand that I did not do this because I am the attention seeker type. A lot of people don't understand that, when dealing with me..unless they know me pretty well. Actually, it was an unpleasant- though interesting- experience, those 5 hours. :) The makeup got into my eyes..I could not finish it on time, as part of my airbrush fell into the drain (and I had to eventually find it and pull it out..)..a lot of things went unexspected- and I like to plan my art if possible.

Let`s see how it goes. :)