Inabilities Square- and a psychologist with a knowledge base that still is medieval times accurate. The Status Quo looks a bit different..she had NO IDEA what an HSP is (or an HSM), she considered art pathological (and that in LINZ, where I am at right now..the "sustainable, artsy capital of Austria"), and so on.
Hell, yeah. A short excerpt on our conversation...we talk about my dream job, and my art.
Dr. PB: so u're doing COSTUMES.
Me: No, I sing and write, the costumes are what I spend more time on right now lacking energy. Singing and writing is that is what I wanna do full-time as soon as my voice has fully recovered.
(..we talk about archetypes, basal visual info and how it could be used for breaking up stereotypes and redisigning a healthier society where people can finally BE themselves a bit more..)
PB.: Are you wearing a costume right now? (Looks me straight into the eye)
Me: Well, I wear UNDERWEAR. (Thinking to myself: Why would I wear a bloody costume, if not for a reason? There is no reason for that in ordinary life? Why are you trying to pathologize me here?!?)
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She did that all the time..else why would she ask those questions? ..
and a bit further on..
PB.: Are you hearing voices that tell you what to do?
Me: NO?!?
PB.: Are you having special relationships to (some) people?
Me: Well, I have a BOYFRIEND. Does that count as pathological? YES, we have a special relationship. We have SEX. Does that count as special enough?
PB: Do you "see" things, or feel you can hear people's thoughts, when they think of you..?
Me: No. (I felt like a pig lying, BUT...all my mentors, all fully healthy, nice and stable members of society..all are telepathic. Please Note: HSP's are known to be medial, and very often have advanced abilieites due to their hypersensitivity, which makes them feel "as if" one could virtually hear the opposite think- and that goes for a latent, estimated 15-20% of the total population!).
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I won't write her name out in full here as yet.and some others, namely the general MD's (Praktischer Arzt) in the same building. It's on the first floor, name tags at the door. :) Let's see what the result will be on thursday..she told me art is pathological within just three to five minutes of seeing me, and I should be taken care of the pro mente branch the art coaching is attached to here (pro mente is the institute for the mentally deranged for all foreigners reading this..says it all, really. I told her: well they do nice fancy little crafts..I am neither stupid nor insane AND what I do takes a lot of knowledge and skill)
She also criticised my "changing jobs often". Well I TRAVELLED a lot, I was BORED often, and very often I found something MORE LUCRATIVE. Every ordinary manager changes job regularily these days..Higher pay, same reason. NOONE with a mental condition could have studied within minimum time, worked AND been active in a charity club..no other artist I know has a degree in business on the side..I came with a solid background for a burnout (and had another one before..): back problems and scan results, a reflux and stomach problem (chronical, stress-induced..), sleeping problems, problems sustaining my energy levels, mood swings, a low immune system parameter..all is burnout syndrome perfect.My (very engaged, educted, up-dated and able psychologist at Bad Schönau, Ms Zodlhofer, suggested G 93.3, which might also match).
And you are tyring to further pick on me and destabilize me- good job. I just found a flat, I have a new boyfriend. All that had to be done was to continue recovery (burnout cure in appr. 6 months, handed in already at the PVA- I had that with me and showed it to them)..the art coaching suggested further education in (art and lifestyle) coaching..it was easy. Until a bunch of socially inept bureaucrats took over. And this in the city of art and sustainability..I sleep on a matress on the floor, I have to eat half-rotten food (no fridge!!) while having a stomach problem, it took a while until they turned on the electricity (my circulation is bad ever since the burnout..)- and life is BEAUTIFUL here. THANKS A LOT. While all payments are being further and further postponed..which really helps my condition.
When I first came here, I thought: Ok, now a flat..and this city is so sustainable,..they cherish art..and I have a mentor..things are getting better..:))))...in 6-8 months, after the cure, I will be kicking again..and I can WORK, and give all the riches I hold inside of me..probably be established pretty fast as I have always had a hand for networking..and even though I am stuck in Nazi country..maybe the people here in this town are nice and different. Maybe I CAN build a life and career here, maybe I can be happy and let all the past heal and be forgotten. ((And if I like, and as soon as I get signed, I can still leave- but this time, without so much hate in my heart.))
Then the first appointment at AMS (Mr. W.), and at Sozialamt Linz (Dept. for Social Affairs, Ms G.)..
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Such a fucked up place, such fucked up people. Just with this one person (and who is attached to me and my whole network and experience)..IT IS YOU WHO WILL LOOSE if you do not start to treat your "clients" with repect. And if its the last thing I do to teach you this. Professionalism and Respect are things I haven't encountered here, so far. Now, Linz, give it a good try! :)
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p.s.: I do not usually name people here, but this screamed out for being written about.
Hell, yeah. A short excerpt on our conversation...we talk about my dream job, and my art.
Dr. PB: so u're doing COSTUMES.
Me: No, I sing and write, the costumes are what I spend more time on right now lacking energy. Singing and writing is that is what I wanna do full-time as soon as my voice has fully recovered.
(..we talk about archetypes, basal visual info and how it could be used for breaking up stereotypes and redisigning a healthier society where people can finally BE themselves a bit more..)
PB.: Are you wearing a costume right now? (Looks me straight into the eye)
Me: Well, I wear UNDERWEAR. (Thinking to myself: Why would I wear a bloody costume, if not for a reason? There is no reason for that in ordinary life? Why are you trying to pathologize me here?!?)
...
She did that all the time..else why would she ask those questions? ..
and a bit further on..
PB.: Are you hearing voices that tell you what to do?
Me: NO?!?
PB.: Are you having special relationships to (some) people?
Me: Well, I have a BOYFRIEND. Does that count as pathological? YES, we have a special relationship. We have SEX. Does that count as special enough?
PB: Do you "see" things, or feel you can hear people's thoughts, when they think of you..?
Me: No. (I felt like a pig lying, BUT...all my mentors, all fully healthy, nice and stable members of society..all are telepathic. Please Note: HSP's are known to be medial, and very often have advanced abilieites due to their hypersensitivity, which makes them feel "as if" one could virtually hear the opposite think- and that goes for a latent, estimated 15-20% of the total population!).
...
I won't write her name out in full here as yet.and some others, namely the general MD's (Praktischer Arzt) in the same building. It's on the first floor, name tags at the door. :) Let's see what the result will be on thursday..she told me art is pathological within just three to five minutes of seeing me, and I should be taken care of the pro mente branch the art coaching is attached to here (pro mente is the institute for the mentally deranged for all foreigners reading this..says it all, really. I told her: well they do nice fancy little crafts..I am neither stupid nor insane AND what I do takes a lot of knowledge and skill)
She also criticised my "changing jobs often". Well I TRAVELLED a lot, I was BORED often, and very often I found something MORE LUCRATIVE. Every ordinary manager changes job regularily these days..Higher pay, same reason. NOONE with a mental condition could have studied within minimum time, worked AND been active in a charity club..no other artist I know has a degree in business on the side..I came with a solid background for a burnout (and had another one before..): back problems and scan results, a reflux and stomach problem (chronical, stress-induced..), sleeping problems, problems sustaining my energy levels, mood swings, a low immune system parameter..all is burnout syndrome perfect.My (very engaged, educted, up-dated and able psychologist at Bad Schönau, Ms Zodlhofer, suggested G 93.3, which might also match).
And you are tyring to further pick on me and destabilize me- good job. I just found a flat, I have a new boyfriend. All that had to be done was to continue recovery (burnout cure in appr. 6 months, handed in already at the PVA- I had that with me and showed it to them)..the art coaching suggested further education in (art and lifestyle) coaching..it was easy. Until a bunch of socially inept bureaucrats took over. And this in the city of art and sustainability..I sleep on a matress on the floor, I have to eat half-rotten food (no fridge!!) while having a stomach problem, it took a while until they turned on the electricity (my circulation is bad ever since the burnout..)- and life is BEAUTIFUL here. THANKS A LOT. While all payments are being further and further postponed..which really helps my condition.
When I first came here, I thought: Ok, now a flat..and this city is so sustainable,..they cherish art..and I have a mentor..things are getting better..:))))...in 6-8 months, after the cure, I will be kicking again..and I can WORK, and give all the riches I hold inside of me..probably be established pretty fast as I have always had a hand for networking..and even though I am stuck in Nazi country..maybe the people here in this town are nice and different. Maybe I CAN build a life and career here, maybe I can be happy and let all the past heal and be forgotten. ((And if I like, and as soon as I get signed, I can still leave- but this time, without so much hate in my heart.))
Then the first appointment at AMS (Mr. W.), and at Sozialamt Linz (Dept. for Social Affairs, Ms G.)..
---------------------------------------------------------CUT--------------------------------------------------------------
Such a fucked up place, such fucked up people. Just with this one person (and who is attached to me and my whole network and experience)..IT IS YOU WHO WILL LOOSE if you do not start to treat your "clients" with repect. And if its the last thing I do to teach you this. Professionalism and Respect are things I haven't encountered here, so far. Now, Linz, give it a good try! :)
...
p.s.: I do not usually name people here, but this screamed out for being written about.
