and if the below hadnt been enough..after I lost the promised flat and am now short on money (still no chance to ever pay a deposit) the girl whose room I was supposed to move in (Italian, chaotic, so shit and desorganisation was programmed, really..) cancelled last minute. Her new flat won't be ready until October. :/
Which means that I am now homeless. And totally fucked. Once again. Which won't change until I have money, finally. I learned: you cannot EVER trust a man. They always want to fuck you- and if you don't, u're fucked. As if a woman is a piece of meat sold by the pound. Fucking animals. If there wasn't the second R. who I am gonna call "Daniel" from now on (in reference to the Bat for Lashes song)..and even if he asn't there..there still would be my project. It is a grim joke, really. you dedicate your LIFE to changing the world for the good (and I havent had a home, a relationship or money for me for very many years..) and it seems that is not needed. Worse, you end up loosing everything. Sad planet, this. And even sadder country.
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Which means that I am now homeless. And totally fucked. Once again. Which won't change until I have money, finally. I learned: you cannot EVER trust a man. They always want to fuck you- and if you don't, u're fucked. As if a woman is a piece of meat sold by the pound. Fucking animals. If there wasn't the second R. who I am gonna call "Daniel" from now on (in reference to the Bat for Lashes song)..and even if he asn't there..there still would be my project. It is a grim joke, really. you dedicate your LIFE to changing the world for the good (and I havent had a home, a relationship or money for me for very many years..) and it seems that is not needed. Worse, you end up loosing everything. Sad planet, this. And even sadder country.
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