..a friend of mine had some ecstatic, morphogenetic dreams of his soul-mate tonight..and I woke up very early and despite mutally felt difficulties in our friendship..had the feeling he was just dreaming of love..and visiting me as well. I felt erotically charged..and it was good. MAN.
Things felt on the astral plane are difficult to describe..as all is particles, and light. I woke up and spent the first half an hour feeling incredibly fulfilled by him. :)
Very much work put into people from my side is instinctive..but it has been beautiful so far to see him blossom. He is an easier case that most gifted people I know, because he is so similar to how I was at his age. At the same time, much to my surprise..he manages to ground me, and give me things noone before has managed to give me.
In the past two decades I have bundled, and fused so many worlds, thoughts, disciplines and lifestyles in my head- I was close to bursting almost every single one of my cells. a very unhealthy thing to do- but, I was alone where I was, very few (spiritually) gifted people around so I just had to experiment with my own body and morphogenetic field. The downfalls were..many. It destroyed bits and pieces of my organic layout. Things I can keep under control, but times like the past few months that was tedious..and I had to focus all of my resources on healing. Which is in progress, still.
Hence- very little time for people work. :) Especially the more difficult kind. As for that friend of mine..he will be so great, so beautiful one day..and as much as he already is like that in my eyes and my perception that goes far..much further than the physical-material realm..^^..he will be really great in the material world as well.
I am not sure about the concept of dual souls, and if and whether there is just one soulmate for every one of us..maybe we don't even need one. Maybe we do. All I know is that I do feel only half alive, and half potent, the way I am right now without him (my dual soul).
As long as I am not sure, I am going to stay away from all men- at least as far as physical relationships are concerned. Intellect and status, beauty and wealth are all but fancy games played to pass time..in my mind.
Although I DO appreciate beauty. I want MORE. I want EVERYTHING. And it reminds me of the T.V. Lady asking me "What do YOU think you can offer a guy?" (looking around, seeling a weird young woman in strange makeup, a burnt-out, former homeless on benefits, without (m)any posessions, ...)..
..and I just thought : "You don't see what I see, do you? You don't see the soul." :)
(and while she was trying hard to deconstruct me..not knowing me, and not understanding how I could be what I am, and how that could work.. in another part of Vienna, my future path was being negotiated and laid out- and I was about to RECEIVE everything...)
- AND I WILL USE IT. :)
Things felt on the astral plane are difficult to describe..as all is particles, and light. I woke up and spent the first half an hour feeling incredibly fulfilled by him. :)
Very much work put into people from my side is instinctive..but it has been beautiful so far to see him blossom. He is an easier case that most gifted people I know, because he is so similar to how I was at his age. At the same time, much to my surprise..he manages to ground me, and give me things noone before has managed to give me.
In the past two decades I have bundled, and fused so many worlds, thoughts, disciplines and lifestyles in my head- I was close to bursting almost every single one of my cells. a very unhealthy thing to do- but, I was alone where I was, very few (spiritually) gifted people around so I just had to experiment with my own body and morphogenetic field. The downfalls were..many. It destroyed bits and pieces of my organic layout. Things I can keep under control, but times like the past few months that was tedious..and I had to focus all of my resources on healing. Which is in progress, still.
Hence- very little time for people work. :) Especially the more difficult kind. As for that friend of mine..he will be so great, so beautiful one day..and as much as he already is like that in my eyes and my perception that goes far..much further than the physical-material realm..^^..he will be really great in the material world as well.
I am not sure about the concept of dual souls, and if and whether there is just one soulmate for every one of us..maybe we don't even need one. Maybe we do. All I know is that I do feel only half alive, and half potent, the way I am right now without him (my dual soul).
As long as I am not sure, I am going to stay away from all men- at least as far as physical relationships are concerned. Intellect and status, beauty and wealth are all but fancy games played to pass time..in my mind.
Although I DO appreciate beauty. I want MORE. I want EVERYTHING. And it reminds me of the T.V. Lady asking me "What do YOU think you can offer a guy?" (looking around, seeling a weird young woman in strange makeup, a burnt-out, former homeless on benefits, without (m)any posessions, ...)..
..and I just thought : "You don't see what I see, do you? You don't see the soul." :)
(and while she was trying hard to deconstruct me..not knowing me, and not understanding how I could be what I am, and how that could work.. in another part of Vienna, my future path was being negotiated and laid out- and I was about to RECEIVE everything...)
- AND I WILL USE IT. :)
