this spring is weird..lovewise. so many men interested in me..I wonder how much longer my heart will be able to take that. I wear Raphael's ring around my neck..it helps me focus, focus on what is real interest and what is not. Me and Michael decided to separate after a big argument- which isnt quite my style (emotional arguments). I just realized I felt overburdened by his lifestyle right now, and need (all of) my energy to focus on my project. I still love him. I hope it will grow into a friendship, or wither away peacefully. No idea what is happening with me right now..I sometimes don't recognize myself. Even though that does not mean I'll ever hurt anyone knowingly. Though it IS a hard one to keep the balance between different exspectations, wishes, dreams and paths.