..quoting Marilyn Manson. :)...the image of a dark figure in a suit half-finished, in an anatomy museum..
Now last week I hooked up with a Finnish photographer, Petra, who has an excellent, puristic kind of Gothic style..red page haircut, chicken bones necklace, mask necklace (I HAD to talk to her about that..I'm obsessed with masks..;), black dress and an unhealthy obsession with, well, basically anything morbid. :)
I like her style- its not mine, I run around looking like an upper class girl rather than a rocker these days (applying for a job in Lifestyle management, still..).
Anyhow, I interested her and she offered to take my picture..which is kind of difficult. For once, I do not like images of myself- I am way too ugly for that. :)
Secondly, this all here is about being anonymous. :) Thirdly, she asked to shoot me in a surrounding that complies with my personality, which is..the most difficult part. I do not HAVE one single personality, I am many. I have to be like that, as an artist and as a human being, simply to showcase that there are many facets available in women, not just one. :)
It is the same kind of thing that Lady Gaga does..acting in an extrovert kind of way, representing something to make room for other people's development. Its like the gay liberation movement..enabling people's coming out as what they really are..a multitude, not a boxed, labelled piece of meat.
Plus...freedom of expression is very liberating for me as well. :)
Anyhow, so we decided to shoot me, a natural picture in front of a wall covered with Ai WeiWei quotes (which represent me both as a writer and as a rebel-of-sorts), then another of me holding a necklace I made ("bubble", from the animasartwork.blogspot.com) at the entrance to the London College of Fashion, where I once studied), and then one we will hopefully be allowed to do in my half-finished suit at the Old Garrett (an anatomical and herb museum- the perfect location for both her and my interests).
:) I wrote to the director of the Old Garrett, who will hopefully reply until end of the week, because I still havent found a job. The catering, receptionist or housekeeping agencies tell me I'm overqualified and their clients do not want to employ people from university, and the jobs I apply for that are for graduates either cannot deal with my artistic side (hey, this is my SPARETIME we're talking about..), or take too long, such as TEN.
And I will have to go home by next monday, unless I get lucky and find a place to sleep at via couchsurfing..all my money is gone now, and I am a virgo..I need some kind of safe, secure place in my life. At some point. Sigh.
That is why I studied..I thought I would be able to avoid the pitfalls of being a "lazy, drug-taking, inefficient and little practical" artist. I am neither, by the way. not ONE SINGLE ONE of these things- and I've proven it in a variety of settings.
Have a nice day, all. :)
