..I helped that guy even though I was stressed out like mad myself, fucked up an exam because of this (while even talking to teachers to help him pass two.. I moved a hell of a lot in the background), and sitting next to him when he completely changed his mood and became Ultra depressed and FEELING that shit like somebody gives you a hard Punch in the stomach isn't a Piece of cake for an empath.
I had to meditate a lot in class to neutralize that.. and spend hours next to him, diving into his energetic grid to help his Spirit lift up.
And then I got shamed and insulted as a result.. this guy really has crazy ideas about life and People.. it's not ok. He Bugs others, sometimes out of fun- he admitted to that- has an Ultra conservative mindset yet exspects tolerance for himself.
That friendship wasnt about me, clearly, or us, I now feel like I have been badly used by him and that isn't good. Maybe he deserves others Mobbing him, when he cant even take a friendly Approach.
I don't know. I don't get it.. but I feel like I don't want to invest an Inch of love or Attention on anyone in this cursed Country ever again. God, I had so much backstabbing I cannot take it anymore.
This isnt a cooperative, or an altruistic place.. this isnt a creative or innovative place. Lets sum it up like this.. hence it is poison for me, and they have poisoned me for Long enough here.
This Christmas that I spend alone- the first one alone that isn't pleasant for me- shall remind me that enough is enough, for good.
I had to meditate a lot in class to neutralize that.. and spend hours next to him, diving into his energetic grid to help his Spirit lift up.
And then I got shamed and insulted as a result.. this guy really has crazy ideas about life and People.. it's not ok. He Bugs others, sometimes out of fun- he admitted to that- has an Ultra conservative mindset yet exspects tolerance for himself.
That friendship wasnt about me, clearly, or us, I now feel like I have been badly used by him and that isn't good. Maybe he deserves others Mobbing him, when he cant even take a friendly Approach.
I don't know. I don't get it.. but I feel like I don't want to invest an Inch of love or Attention on anyone in this cursed Country ever again. God, I had so much backstabbing I cannot take it anymore.
This isnt a cooperative, or an altruistic place.. this isnt a creative or innovative place. Lets sum it up like this.. hence it is poison for me, and they have poisoned me for Long enough here.
This Christmas that I spend alone- the first one alone that isn't pleasant for me- shall remind me that enough is enough, for good.
