Mirra Alfassa was right. I don't need a man anymore. I never did.
Back then, before I met Raphael, I thought synousia was needed to finish my earthly development- I was wrong.
I recently met a man I felt the same depth and soul connection for- after 12 years! Imagine. Such a long time to mourn.
I am getting sick and tired of pathetic men- even the intelligent ones. Mind me I LOVE vulnerability in a man, but this hurt type of posing and looking for attention on instagram is just pathetic. That or the constant, insane craving for competition. Like in my last client.
Overcompensation is pathetic. You don't need much. You need LOVE. And you need to be able to recognise synchronicities, respond to them. Love people who love you.
One should think this is simple, and easy. But it apparently isn't.
The major mistake men make is thinking that a woman who is kind and loving can be taken advantage of. That won't work out. Ever.
I used to have patience, endless patience and understanding. I do not want to be patient anymore, and be the lover, the caretaker, the everything for a man. Its OVER.
And I dont care who you are and how you come to me. If you love me, and come trembling, or dysfunctional.. that is ok. It has always been. But what I CANNOT have is that stupid posing, that stupid need for attention. The tinder lifestyle. The most useless, soulless shit app ever invented.
It fucked up a whole generation. Good Luck with that.
