Interesting. They cut out the juicy bits and discussions me and Spira had..^^..of course. ;D
(Like: S: "One CANNOT be everything!", A:"Of course you can!", S: "I am SURE that is impossible!", A: "In the material world, yes. I agree that one cannot be all kinds of thing at once, acted out at the same time. But immaterially, as a state of mind, it IS possible and desireable. (thinking: this is what enlightenment is about).")
Some images look surprisingly good- some I thought would come across pretty well looked awkward.
I am still a bit too big- and sometimes my voice sounds too affectionate and almost as if I wasn't telling the truth. I was. I know that my speech may appear a bit too emotional at times- and I was told my laughter sounds like an opera singers ("acted", almost). Try to act laughter.
Anyways..I am quite happy with the music picked (Kate Bush: Running up that Hill) and most of the visuals picked. I did not know they had been filming my styleboard? And some more things. Well.
All in all I am happy with how I was portrayed for my first time on T.V. I am charismatic and strong- despite just having had returned from a cure..hardly being able to breathe let alone sing..(my voice sounds AWFUL!! in my mind)..and the makeup got into my eyes. I was told I occasionally sound nervous. I was TIRED, strung out and sad. She managed to get me to talk about Raphael..something I did not want to do on this occasion. Something that maybe got me a bit nervous because I hadnt prepared to talk about that. It was a PR stunt- and I wasnt really looking for a guy. Plus, still being in a burnout..that is the last thing I am looking for right now..a new love.
(p.s.: update today 31-08-2012: I have just been told by a young woman that she thought the TV appearance was inspiring and that she considers me to be a role model (for changing people's minds about how one should look, act, be). Now THAT is a compliment;)
(Like: S: "One CANNOT be everything!", A:"Of course you can!", S: "I am SURE that is impossible!", A: "In the material world, yes. I agree that one cannot be all kinds of thing at once, acted out at the same time. But immaterially, as a state of mind, it IS possible and desireable. (thinking: this is what enlightenment is about).")
Some images look surprisingly good- some I thought would come across pretty well looked awkward.
I am still a bit too big- and sometimes my voice sounds too affectionate and almost as if I wasn't telling the truth. I was. I know that my speech may appear a bit too emotional at times- and I was told my laughter sounds like an opera singers ("acted", almost). Try to act laughter.
Anyways..I am quite happy with the music picked (Kate Bush: Running up that Hill) and most of the visuals picked. I did not know they had been filming my styleboard? And some more things. Well.
All in all I am happy with how I was portrayed for my first time on T.V. I am charismatic and strong- despite just having had returned from a cure..hardly being able to breathe let alone sing..(my voice sounds AWFUL!! in my mind)..and the makeup got into my eyes. I was told I occasionally sound nervous. I was TIRED, strung out and sad. She managed to get me to talk about Raphael..something I did not want to do on this occasion. Something that maybe got me a bit nervous because I hadnt prepared to talk about that. It was a PR stunt- and I wasnt really looking for a guy. Plus, still being in a burnout..that is the last thing I am looking for right now..a new love.
(p.s.: update today 31-08-2012: I have just been told by a young woman that she thought the TV appearance was inspiring and that she considers me to be a role model (for changing people's minds about how one should look, act, be). Now THAT is a compliment;)
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