They say, horses love to be in love (as per Chinese horse star sign). This is somewhat true, as for life, and regarding the global population- however, the real thing only ever hits me every few years or so.
And it is good this way. I couldn't bear this intensity often.
Usually, it hits you when you least expect it- but sometimes it answers some old requests to the universe (call them synchronicities), and it is lovely to see divine creativity at play- and a new, surprisingly creative manifestation- each time around.
And love, in Old Town, in (late) summer- even one as cold as this year- is something special.
(the pigeon illustrates my general mood in this cold weather..)
I met someone. I didn't think that- even the last few times I was in love- ANYONE could ever replace Raphael in my heart. For many reasons, that is also a good thing- the man had a disastrous effect on my life.
However- I met someone, a guest on my tours. Someone who is NOT open to love, and neither am I.
We're roughly the same age, and we both look astonishingly young.
In fact, in his case, I suddenly understood what people must see when they look at me. I was shocked to learn his real age. Really, really shocked. First timer.
Even more shocked when, I don't know why because this is NOT my style, I was bored that day and ran a few random tests on "male tour guest".
For once, I had lunch at the beginning of the tour- in front of him. Ok- I was hungry. But thats rude.
Then I was kind of curious to see how he would react to the Estonian guide at a coworking space. He had ZERO interest in her- when your rando guy would start drooling instantly at the sight of cool, thin, blonde, young females. In fact, he was eager to leave. Another First Timer.
That was the moment I realised this guy was maybe a bit different from the crowd. Anyhow.
Eventually, a few days later, and after a rocky start, we came to the conclusion that maybe a friendship is possible. Which is also a First Timer, because with my passion, this would normally not be possible. Mind me, I struggle- but I am determined to pull through.
He is worth it, to me. I really, really dig his essence.
